LIVING IN A WORLD OF LIES

"Have you ever been in a situation where in you spend every minute listening on everything he/she says?"

POEM # 4

"Worth Waiting For"
by Junels Reg

Years ago, back when I was little,

I do nothing but to mingle

Thought that life is simple

And my house is my only temple

My parents taught me of everything

To have a life which is worth living

From them I learned dancing and singing

Most especially, the essence of dreaming

I said, “Mom & Dad, I wanted to be a doctor”

They answered, “We are your supporter”

Support and love of them is greater

And in everything, God became the center

16 Years had passed, white uniform is worn

During my capping day, to Him I sworn

The passion is with me from the day I was born

Those in need, won’t be rejected and scorned

Planned to be a nurse to gain knowledge

Failures, pain, and strength were managed

4 year course and finished with courage

And yes, I’m ready to continue medicine in college

I took up medicine whole-heartedly

Being a doctor is a dream I wanted to be

Not just to gain titles, fame, and money

But also to serve and help the many

During the process of my life, I met this stranger

I thought someone will put my heart again in danger

But rather made my entire monotonous life better

And then he told everyone, “I’m going to marry her” 

Now, I’m holding my pen and stethoscope

I can still feel the courage and undying hope

 I can still feel the times that I wasn’t able to cope

Yet still fighting and holding on my life’s rope

I even tried ending up everything

I really don’t know where I will be going

I have been failing and ending up crying

And feels like I’m the only one fighting

I just don’t know how did I get here?

From a girl who’s been covered with fear

Strength is counted by every single tear

And thought success will never be near

 Years later I’m doctor and has my own happy family

And fortunately be already living in other country

I already have the life that I once for see

Mom and dad, thanks for being supportive to me

Thanks for those mistakes that made better

For  family & friends who became my supporter

For my professors who became my educator

Most especially for God who became my mover

Here I am now sitting on our huge comfy chair

While he’s hugging me with tender, loving, care

Talking about all the memories we shared

And how our undying love is still on flare

Now I can certainly say that I am ready to fly

Going to the peaceful paradise beyond the sky

After all the things that worth abided by

 I can now peacefully rest and say good bye

I just made this poem for my "SELF-AWARENESS" requirement in Psychiatric Nursing. This is how I see my life for the next few years until the end of time. 




Sincerely,



SLENUJ

ON MY OWN

As I walk along the corridor, I see nothing but your face.I can still remember the first day I saw you.

On that day, I got butterflies in my stomach. 

That everytime your head turned and looked at me, there was always this fluttering feeling; imagining one day you will go near me and ask if you can join with me during lunch. 

It feels like my 

world stopped when I saw you. 

I can still remember how captivating your smile was.

I even followed you wherever you go. Your presence always made my day. But one thing I realized, you were so far away. Physically we were just one step away but emotionally, we were more than million miles away.

Every night, I have been praying that one day you can also love me in return; that one day I will be your most special girl in life. But I was wrong. I was just dreaming; dreaming all alone; loving all alone. Those unspoken words that never be heard and never will. 

I was then involved in a relationship which was not even mutual. Why? Don’t you even care? Don’t you even want to hear my words? Don’t you even want to be with me? You don’t need to answer because I already know. Sometimes I was thinking, why you don’t just turn your head on me and give me chance. I can love you more than any woman can do. Sometimes I was thinking, am I not that pretty enough to be loved by this special guy of mine? 

I have been thriving for this one sided love affair. But how long will I fight for this? Is this worth fighting for? If you just knew that someone here was loving you in silence, but you never did. I chose to love you in silence because in silence there is no rejection. I just can’t help myself from falling in love with you. I love you but only on my own. Now this is where it ends; Pain that never mended and love that has never started.










Sincerely,



SLENUJ

WHAT WE USED TO HAVE

Hey there my friend!
Still remember me?

NURSING WORLD # 1

Nursing:

THINGS NEVER TAUGHT BY BOOKS

No matter how thick books are, there are always things that you can never learn from it but instead you are going to learn it by experiences or in the process.

POEM # 3

"Let Him Go"

by Junels Reg

10/5/14 HAVE A BLESSED SUNDAY!

Have a blessed Sunday to my readers! You shall not forget the Holy Sabbath Day..

Here's  a verse for you. This is my favorite bible verse. A close friend of mine shared this to me during few years ago when I was really about to give up.

POEM # 2

"All of a Sudden"
by Junels Reg

POEM # 1

"Simplest Goodbye"
by Junels Reg

10 THINGS PROFESSOR SHOULD KNOW ABOUT THEIR STUDENT

What does professor do in class?



Of course, obviously they teach. But there are certain things that they don't consider and understand on the part of their students. They don't make connections with them. They think that after teaching, it's over. 

Here are the list of 10 things college professors should know about their student. 

FEELS LIKE GIVING UP?

Have you ever been in a suicidal condition? Do you have a friend who is in suicidal? Well, this post is for you! Kindly read this until the end. 

IT WAS NOT JUST THEM YET

Tell me, what is Love?

Have you ever fallen in love before?

Have you ever thought about these couple of things:

Ø He/she is the one!

Ø He/she is my destiny!

Ø He/she is my soulmate!

Ø You will always be my baby!

But the real question is, have you ever fallen in love and they do feel the same way?

I guess some of you would say YES.

But I will ask you again, is it really LOVE?

GIRLFRIENDS FOREVER

There is a saying...

“FRIENDS COME AND GO”

Do you believe on that? Hmm I do believe on that. I experienced a lot! I have met several friends who were used to be my best buddies but now we are actually strangers.

5 DAYS JOURNEY OF A REFRESHER STUDENT

I repeat, REFRESHER student not a REPEATER. 

DEAR FUTURE HUSBAND

CLICK THIS AND LISTEN TO THE SONG :)

Dear Future Husband,

PREFACE

I created this VIRTUAL DIARY. I really don’t know why my mind has been telling to make a blog and write up everything I want to say; some random shits. Seriously, I don’t know how to make a blog. THANKS TO MY PROFESSOR who taught us how to make one.